Day 23 - Kena scolded for being nice.. What logic..

Mood of the day - Was pissed.. nowNormal / Mentally and Physically Drained.. (Saved by Bible Study)

Events of the day -

- One big cluster
- The Argument
- The Island..
- Going Back.. Rescue
- Packing
- Ross's private lesson
- Bible Study

Today's bike ride was slow.. Muscles kinda sore.. Knee hurt a little.. darn i need a chiropractor.. haha.. the swelling on my ankle is still there.. hasn't gone down..

We joined the kids today for the training.. one whole big group.. she did the briefing on the drills that she's gonna do.. since she wouldn't listen otherwise.. so.. i usually zone off. haha.. save myself some frustration.. so.. we did some drills.. leeward mark rounding.. coached Ross to some beautiful starts.. but too bad he doesn't know what to do at the leeward mark.. and allow all the boats to shout him off.. banged quite a few boats.. pissed a few kids off.. oh well..

Eileen dun quite see eye to eye with me on some starting sequence.. The way I would have sailed it.. and the way she would have sailed it is quite different.. I mean...she's talking abt a perfect scenerio.. and basically.. it never happens.. unless the rest of the fleet is stupid.. or they just suck.. hahaha.. anyway.. my starts.. i would say its quite decent.. just that I never really stuck to my plan.. and I have to kick myself silly after that.. sigh.. can't make decisions for nuts..

Lunch time came..and we were suppose to go to the island.. we had another disagreement on how to sail them there.. i suggested to go straight to the island.. cos she wanted to get the boats back by 130 to start loading up.. and its alreayd 12.. it made sense to go straight to island in 20 mins.. have a quick lunch.. n prolly 50 minutes or so to sail back.. since its sailing up wind.. She said no. she say it'll be a waste training time.. so fine.. i suggested another course.. go round the channel marker.... set a mark up wind.. and run all the way to the island.. she said no again.. she's not excited abt them doing a broadreach to the channel marker.. So in the end.. she rounded everybody up.. and told them to do a course.. similiar to mine.. almost identical.. 'cept that the first mark that they are suppose to round is slightly further down.... which can't be seen.. and they duno where the hell it is... and she asked them to do 5 tacks right after the starts.. which doesn't make any sense.. cos if u screw up ur tacks.. it means that u're in a lower position.. and u'll start ahead of the fleet.. SO.. Christopher ask me wats going on? i shrugged my shoulders..and say I duno.. I just told him to lsiten to wat i have to say and just do it.. hahah.. he started near my boat.. first boat off the line.. i got him to tack 5 times real quick.. and he started first.. and reached the mark first. hahaha.. it was farnee to watch.. So.. I was kinda pissed at the way she did things.. and the method of instructions.. then came Alex.. he capsized.. I wanted to tow the boat.. she said no. she said that there's a way to upright the boat without any water in it.. I haven't seen an upright of optimist without any water in it in my life.. maybe I just haven't seen enuff.. but thing here is..she haven't done it herself.. and she's using him as n experiment.. i'm not in favour of that.. He lost his bailer.. instead of looking arnd the area real quick.. she wanted to go to the other boats that are really far away to borrow a bailer from them.. So.. i looked real hard.. and saw it floating fully submerged below the water.. pointed that out.. and we got it.. passed it to him.. wanted to tow him.. and he can drain out while he is going.. cos the bow will lift and the water will flow out.. but she doesn't like towing boats cos of the amount of pressure on it.. I mean.. it is meant to be towed.. thats why they come with holes infront with ropes thru it... and she just towed boats yesterday.. cos she mistimed it.. let then sail out too far.. and had to tow them back! i mean..why the double standards!! Then.. come the best part.. She wanted to reach back at 130.. we reached the island at 1250.. I'm sayin..a quick 10 to 20 minutes lunch.. and we gotta leave.. n she was even telling Lindsey that we'll be back by 130.. i'm like. no way.. make that 2pm.. or later! Its going upwind all the way back! Anyway.. I had to help several kids out while they were having lunch.... she was onshore.. eating.. playing frisbee.. asked jeffery to use his optimist to tow her to shore.. cos she refuses to get into the water.. i mean.. the water was disgusting that day.. so.. i'm ok with that.. i do wish she wouldn't make such a fuss abt it.. but well.. give her benefit of a doubt.. so.. i got a few kids outta the rocks.. i got cut by it.. guess i should have worn shoes.. darnit.. ate my lunch.. sent the kids off.. and of course.. i've gotta go drive my boat over to fetch her from shore.. cos she wouldn't walk to the boat..

So.. we had to talk jeffery to sail close haul.. Ross was doing alright.. Gotta help Marley outta trouble.. got her hiking out.. she was cool.. capsized.. helped her again..she was doing fine when we left her.. then we saw ross crying.. I would have screamed at him to get sailing.. or maybe cajoule him.. but eileen.. jumped right in.. and ask if he would let her sail the boat and he sit in the powerboat.. just cos it was windy and it was fun.... damnit.. i knew she was waiting for that.. she did the same thing on wednesday.. just left the kids luffing in the wind... and she went off zipping arnd by herself.. I'm not thrilled with that.. so.. anyway.. I saw jeffrey flapping in the distance.. i went to him.. and he told me that he got a broken mast.. I looked and saw that his mast step was broken.. n it can't be sailed anymore.. SO.. i started towing him. then I noticed that there's n Xcite capsized in the distance.. So.. i untied Jeffrey from me.. it was hunter.. i had to jump into the water to help him upright his boat.. brr.. was it cold or wot.. but anyway.. i went back to jeffrey.. continue towing him.. noticed that Michael was still going upwind.. not in a very close haul.. meaning.. he will never get back.. so.. closing to the sailing centre. I saw Karen.. n she pointed out a girl that was crying.. and she wouldn't do anything that she say.. i looked anrd. n it was Jordan.. went to her.. and its just her centreboard that got stuck on a rope.. and seh have to do is just pull up the centreboard and seh will be free.. so.. i got her out.. went back to shore.. and saw Eileen coming towards me looking "real Friendly".. she yelled.. "would you stop helping all the Xcite kids and help our own Optimist instead" I was kinda taken aback.. and pissed.. I'm thinking.. if she hadn't take over the optimist.. and dun make such a huge fuss abt me towing boats.. I would have brought them back long ago.. then I went out to tow michael.. not very happy..

man.. this story is getting too long.. anyway... we loaded the boat.. she did a lousy 10 seconds bullet speed instruction to the kids on how to use the ratchet block for tying the boat down.. which none of them understand again.. shouted at me that all the front pipes are filled wiht masts already.. and i would have known if i wasn't so late.. i would have slapped her.. if I was in sec 1.. i would have gone and beat her up.. I mean.. u dun yell at another instructor infront of the kids.. if anything.. it should be discussed after the kids are gone.. I'm like screw it..just finish up fast.. and bring Ross out for sailing..he really need the extra time..

Brought him out.. showed him how to trim.. how to helm.. how to change hands and tack properly.. how to gybe and go down wind.. how to go up close haul.. and keep it there.. sheetin all the way and trim using the rudder only.. how to judge how to go from close haul to close haul.. he did them all beautifully..i just hope that he manage to convert it to his optimist.. and sail well on monday.. Anyway.. his mum Joann came by later with his brother Carl.. they were going rock climbing.. they invited me.. but i din wanna join cos i'm afarid that they might have to pay for me.. and cos i'm doign ross a favour by bringing him out to sail.. I dun want those kinda stuff and repayments.... i do it cos i wanna.. I wanna see him sail well.. period.. 2 weeks has gone.. and we are left with 4 weeks.. time is gonna fly..

I finally got done at the centre.. cycled back with steve.. had a good time bitching.. got home.. grandpa fixed dinner for us.. it was nice.. we ran outta butter. but thank god there was "I cn't believe its butter" stoned infront of the computer.. David and Keven came for bible study.. Genesis Chapt 40.. it was nice.. it brought some sanity back to me.. and i stopped thinking abt the incident in the afternoon.. Actually... I kinda forgot abt it when I was out with Ross.. sailing takes my mind off things.. ANyway.. it has been a really long day.. I'm glad to turn into bed.. Amen..

thoughts of the day: I hate confrontations..